Fear has so many of us feeling stuck, holding us back from reaching our higher potentials. Fear from many places, particularly in this instance fear that stems as far back as childhood. These old issues that stick with us, telling us “wait” when we start to move forward. “Are you sure about that?” “Look out!” A deep-seated fear that has us never fully relaxing into our bodies or the moment as these instances arise. The kind of fear that has us saying to ourselves, “maybe later,” because we are suddenly frozen in panic and stress so we put our goals, dreams or even small tasks (like grocery shopping) on hold for now. Later, when it feels safe. Except - how often does it feel safe enough?

Today I was preparing to work on a project I am near completing but my Inner Child was NOT having it, whatsoever. My entire day had revolved around grown-up things and business things, and even though I was happy and in a good mood, the thought of sitting in front of my laptop to peer closely at some slide presentations felt downright shitty in the moment. Now, the project itself is something I am excited about - but there was this part of me, my Inner Child, that felt deprived of fun, joy, laughter and being lost in creativity. Crystals … crystals and art were calling to me.

A small glass jar filled with Blue Amazonite crystal chips and colorful strands of beads on a table outside — Chips of Amazonite Crystals

Now that we have a house for the first time since we moved here I felt the urge to make use of the table on the back patio. It is old, crooked and wobbly and the outer rim is covered in rust. To my left is the door to my studio, to my right our tool shed. Before me is the side yard with bushes, trees and the memorial I made to my mother in November. Squirrels play and birds sing, while crows cry out loudly above. I see piles of brown leaves leftover from the Autumn that found themselves caught in corners of the patio and back porch. Have I mentioned (I am sure I must have) that Fall and Winter are my favorite times of the year? Despite the chilly cold, I yanked a red cap onto my head and grabbed the nearest sketchpad and bin of mixed media art materials. And crystals, can’t forget the crystals! I was called to work with Apatite today, and a jar of Amazonite pieces. Lastly, a cup of half-caff in a Snoopy mug made this moment perfect.

Dawn outside in a red hat staring at the camera — It’s not quite spring and that is fine by me

I sat back, as I held this beautiful blue Apatite tower in my hand. Blue with varying shades, mimicking the sheen of the sea and the depths of a bright summer sky just before dusk. Lost in this serene energy, the spirit of Apatite began to speak quickly, with the tone and inflection of a wise professor. Apatite’s spirit spoke of working through the fear that tends to hold us back from our inner power. Below is the message I channeled for you.

Light blue chips of Amazonite crystal with strands of colorful beads and a blue Apatite crystal tower in the center over channeled art of blue and black colors — Energy infused crystal grid and art with Apatite and Amazonite crystals. This image contains healing energy for you to connect to. It is not necessary to see the image to feel the energy.

“Easing into the feeling of fear, instead of running, sit firmly and feel it. Are you still safe? Yes? Good. Sit some more.”

“Where is it tight in your body? What memories or emotion may be surfacing? Check in - Are you safe? Yes. Now breath! Deep, big bold breaths. Have you breathed today?”

“What will it take to make you feel safer? Ask yourself, ‘What are the things you can do in this moment to feel more secure?’”

“Breath again. Close your eyes for a moment and feel yourself sinking deeper and deeper into your body. What hurts? Where are you tense? I challenge you to create art with the intention of letting go. Letting go of the trauma or the emotion connected to that spot.”

“Your jaw - is it clenched? Relax it now. Softer.”

“We are in the process of shedding old fears. Fears that were put upon us by others. I bet you weren’t even scared of this one thing until someone told you that you should be.”

“How do you feel now? Softer? Warmer? Feel the energy of this message. Sit very still with it. You are going to be okay. We get there, slowly, day by day.”

“Courage awaits on the other side. How does it look? How does it feel? Take ownership of this feeling, this embodiment. Now practice it. I will walk you through it if you’d like.” - Apatite

Side view of a blue Apatite crystal tower surrounded by small pieces of light blue Amazonite chips, colorful strands of beads over channeled healing art of blue and black colors — Apatite crystal invites you to work with this healing energy

This entire message has been infused with the energy of the Apatite crystal for you to feel it as you read and interact with the text, including audibly. Apatite has invited you to work with it’s energy to heal old fears while finding feelings of safety, calm and peace. Do you accept the invitation?

a gray sky with many white clouds and some tree branches in the lower left corner — I was guided to include this photo of the sky while working with Apatite, as the image contains healing energy, as well.

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Journal Prompt - what is something you can do in this moment to feel more secure? — Journal: What is something you can do in this moment to feel more secure?

Journal Prompt: What does courage look like to you? How does it feel? — What does courage look like to you? How does it feel?

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